macam mane yer?

bile dikenang belagak die tu..
bile dikenang ego die tu..
bile dikenang mende yg die xbgtau
bile dikenang cara die tu..
But i love you..
(ceit aku dh berjiwang dekat blog prof aku...)
I just hate it when everything wrong..
when everything not rite..
it hurt u..
mean it hurt me too..

n u..
im sure..
bile kenangkan perangai buruk aku yg suke maki, marah xtentu pasal, mengelabah xtentu hale, melenting tibe tibe, naik angin selalu..
sure benci.. i know..
thanks sbb tahan..
but u have limit rite..

im okay with that..
so that.. END

Perangai aku buruk

aku asyik nk betul je...
pastu org xleh nk kutuk aku..
aku kutuk org boleh..
uish buruk perangai aku..
then aku suker berlagak
aku xder duit.. dantis..
tp aku belagak..
nk mkn kat starbuck.. secret recipe..
uish dasyat..
belagak gile la..
sbb aku senang dpt duit..
abih duit pun senang..
ape org kate.. duit xberkat.. mmg laju la ilangnye
klu aku sengket aku pau die...
tu yg die bengang ngn aku..
die xbengang.. tp die sayang duit die..
die hargai setiap duit yg die ada..
sbb tu die slow2 xbg aku boros..
aku suker die buat camtu..
betul serius aku suker..
tp xkene care..
or maybe die xreti nk do it rite..
i dono.. aku xfaham die.. my fault

lg ape yg buruk sal aku ni..
yg die nyampah sangat kat aku ni..
byk.. dulu die dh listkan..
tp aku lupe..
aku cepat lupe la..
so sorry..
its funny, because i already promise to myself tuk ingat ur befday next year..
but its not gona happen now.. fine

what is the option?

what is the option in ur life..
kenape soklan ni kuar dlm pale otk aku?
option untuk tidak maki2..

boleh ke?
bukan nye aku xcube
i did..
bile aku marah kan.. bile aku cube xnk maki
aku diam je.. aku senyap je..
tp cam org tu xfaham konsep yg aku ni tgh marah or dh marah
kalau die nmpak n try to fix it..
okla.. marah tu leh ilang..
tp ni.. xder effect jugak..
ape org ckp.. xfaham bahase..
haaaaaaaaaa.. mase tula kuar segala kata hikmah
"babi bodoh sangat ko ni cam gampang babi.."
tu sume kata maki2an aku la tu..
i have to say it, klu x org tu xfaham bahase aku ni tgh marah

soklan lagi...
kenape mesti nk bgtau or tunjuk yg kite ni tgh marah?
yela.. so that next time its not gona happen again..
so that jgn nk memandai bandingkan aku ngn org lain lg..
or ckp biar pk dulu sebelum say smtg..
and klu dh tau what u hv said tu menyakitkan hati org
cpt2 mintak maaf.. have u said sorry before.. or mase awal2 kejadian..
xder.. sbb ko ego nk minta maaf susah... aku tau tu ko susah nk mintak maaf
sbb tu aku biar.. diam.. sampai ko mintak maaf.. after 3 day ko mintak maaf..
tp mintak maaf ko tu xikhlas.. so no use..
ko sedar x? ko bleh mengeluarkan kate2 yg sakit hati.. lebih tepat.. laser..
maybe ko xsedarkan..
bile dh kuar kate2 laser ko tu.. mmg aku terasa
sangat.. sakit hati.. smtime wat sakit hati
selalu nye wat aku marahla.. bile aku dh marah...
ko taula.. kene maki la kau..

ok.. soklan lagi..
kenape mesti nk maki?? sakit hati tau org yg kene maki tu..
sory.. aku rasanye xtau macam mane perasaan kene maki tu..
maybe xpernah kene maki..
or ada org maki tp aku xingat..
ada.. pernah rasanye aku kene maki
but what i do.. i stand back.. aku maki balik..
aku tryla la.. bayangkan aku kene maki..
so that aku tau perasaan nye, so that aku xkan maki die..
aku try tu... that y aku dpt thn..
mule2 nye aku tahan..
tp di push lagi.. di wathal lagi..
xleh tahan la.. mmg kene kuarkan jugak kate makian tu..
smtm aku bg hint... "aku" - that word
so faham2 kan bahase tu..
say sorry la for what u have said
say sorry la for what u have did
tp nothing.. xder.. yes again..
i know ko bukan jenis suke mintak maaf
klu aku boleh sabar.. aku sabar..
tp selalu nye tak..
and that make u hate me..

ya.. i know.. i hurt u alot
and im sorry...
but u also hurt me..
then u said sorry too..
so.. ok.. END

xder yang kekal

xder yang kekal dlm dunia ni
ingatkan cerah sampai ke petang
tp hujan di tengahari
sampai banjir lg tu...
kecewa.. offcourse..

everyone yang dh been around me, even for a day
dorang bleh tau aku ni panas baran
klu xleh tahan.. blah je kan..
watpe nk thn2.. xder maknenye...

harap maklum nk bgtau kat sini
im not a good person..
aku cepat melenting.. cepat marah
but when im cool.. ok jer.. xderhal pape
asal ko jgn bg aku marah je
aku rasa selain tu sumenye indah..
klu aku marah.. mmg xlari nye ko kene maki
sape je aku xmaki..
mak aku, bos aku, adik beradik aku...
ko.. apela sangat... ko cari pasal mmg kene maki la

xpayah nk ingatkan aku org akan lari kalu dengan perangai aku camni...
sbb seumur idop aku ni, mmg dh ramai org yg aku anggap kawan, ilang terus lost contact....
sbb tu aku xramai kawan..
its happen.. aku dh tau..
this is me.. what i am.. i cant change
i can try.. i did try.. best sangat ke aku nk maki mak aku..
dosa besar tu.. aku tau
but i just cant stop my self..
just.. jgn cari pasal la.. tu jerla..

haih.. sedih jugak bile org yg kite sayang tinggalkan kite sbb tu
what to do.. cari org yg leh tahan la..
klu xder.. idop sendiri lo..
but its hurt, hurt a lot..
after many year living together...
at the end.. ape yg die boleh cakp.. "lega sbb dh lepas dari seksaan"
now i know.. its all fake when u with me
sengsara sangat ke? then kebahagian yg aku bagi kat ko tu?
i know.. u have limit
people have their own limit
i understand that.. u can stand on ur own feet now
u not need me
u heart are stronger that u be able to live without me now

c.. im cool.. xder maki2.. sbb aku xder reason nk maki mase nk tulis ni..
bukannye nk maki membabi bute..
tgk hal la kan...
smtg yang anoying me, yg kacau jiwa aku.. yang naikan angin aku..
mmg sah2 la kene maki kan..
tu level kemarahan aku..

setiap org ada level kemarahan die..
ada yg bile marah.. nangis
ada yg bile marah.. hentak meja, baling kasut, pecahkan barang
ada yg bile marah.. tinggikan suare
ada yg bile marah.. duk diam, xlayan org
ada yg bile marah.. amik air sembahyang
ada yg bile marah.. maki2.. aku la tu

lain org lain pe el..
tp yg pasti.. anger tu hv to go somewhere la..
susah.. i dono how can i explain this to u
so that u can understand..
klu xleh tahan..
mean, we not mean for each other la..

ape yg dikesalkan kat sini..
kenape nk cari pasal...?
dh tau.. even a small thing can piss me off, boleh make me angry
still kenape nk cari pasal
dari mende kecik.. di tambah lg wat hal
when im cool.. di tambah balik wat hal

aku tau ko bengang dgn sape yg kol aku haritu...
that my hair styler la.. dak cine tu..
apesal ko x tanye betul2 aku sape yg kol..
lantak ko la..
skang ni dh kite dh xder pape..
settle..

u can have ur number back.. dont worry..
u can still have it.. u can still use it
but.. i hope u will not use that number
because.. im scare if i cant control myself..
i will call u.. its better not to know ur number

again...
aku boleh cakap baik kalau ko xwat aku marah...

END

END... im hurt.. aku nk berkongsi dgn sape? xde.. sbb aku sorang sekarang.

Gua Panas

gua hati panas giler ngn mamat keling (sory aku bukan racist.).. cam sial... dah 2 kali cam ni.. DINASIHATKAN DISARANKAN jgn amik cosultant dari negara keling india mari punya.. cakap keling berbelit2.. suker menipu..

dorang ni mmg layak duk merempat.. org dah bagi keje xreti nk wat keje.. sial.. gile bapak bangang.. kate expert senior super project manager, technical sal laptop sendiri xreti nk setup. tu xperla.. aku x expect sume Staff IT tau mende ni.. Tp cam haram mende yg ko ngaku expert pun ko xleh nk wat.. mmg kene kencing betul...

memule datang (ye, ko tu pendatang!!) sume org ckp ko dengar, then ko try resolve.. lepas seminggu ni aku xckp abih ko dh sambung.. then ko xdgr langsung situasi masalah aku.. dasar keling.. cibai.. base keling ko sangat pekat. aku tau spoken ko very good.. ko saje buat ckp cam ada taik dlm mulut, sbb ko xtau ape yg ko nk kene ckapkan..

try not to serabut, but he make me sangat2 serabut..

Rihanna Russian Roulette

Take a Breathe, take a deal
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take the gun and count to three
You're sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

And you can see my heart.. beating
You can see it through my chest
I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger.....

Say a prayer to yourself
He says close your eyes, sometimes it helps
And then I get a scary thought
That he's here, means he's never lost

And you can see my heart.. beating
Now You can see it through my chest
That I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger.....

As my life flashes before my eyes
I'm wondering if I will ever see another sunrise
So many won't get the chance to say goodbye
But it's to late to think of the value of my life

And you can see my heart.. beating
O You can see it through my chest
I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger.....